Hazia’s Reflections

As I was packing my things yesterday evening, I got a shock. With a sweet smiling face, the HR Exec suddenly handed a form for me to sign. It was a half day leave application form. She was forcing a half day pay deduction on me because I came to work late. She said it’s a company policy which applied to staff that come to the office after 11am. She had done that to other staff as well. She said she was already being nice by closing an eye on me going to work late these last few days. Whoa!

My defence:

1) I have resigned, tomorrow is my last day. There is no more workload. What’s the big deal? Why so bloody calculative?

2) I arrived at the office at 10.50am, not after 11am. And I didn’t leave early either.

3) Half day leave starts at 1pm, not 11am

4) Why wasn’t there a warning these last few days? It’s rude to just fill up a form and make people sign it.

5) If it’s a company policy, why wasn’t it made known to all staff?

6) Why 11am? My guess is because on the days that the Admins Manager herself is late, she arrives before 11am.

7) Why is the company applying coffee shop policy on some matters and being book strict on others? Very inconsistent.

This is not her first act depicting her lack of common sense and intelligent, so I gave her a piece of my mind. I don’t care that I’m leaving soon but she is just plain…. STUPID! There, I’ve finally said it! It applies to her boss too, plus the one she reports to, whom I’d no longer do, effective from this Saturday.

I could get 10 copies of my books with that half day salary that they robbed from me. That realisation really irks me:(

Her boss sent me a long email yesterday to reply my email commenting about my attitude, etc, the same old story la. Some more mengungkit about them reducing my notice period by 1 month & reimbursing my medical charges of RM500. Hey, that was my one and only medical claim during my 2.5 years here.

My point is that I’m puzzled about why she still bothers about me and why is she still asking me to change. What does that do to her? Come tomorrow, I’m gone. She needs to get it into her narrow little head that her image of the correct attitude and behavior is only applicable to this workplace. It’s not generic. It’s a different game altogether elsewhere. Molding me to fit this place does not mean making me better. On the contrary, it would be a setback once I stepped into another environment. It makes one weak.

Just forget about me, forget about my existence and forget that our paths had ever crossed. Why is that so difficult for her to do? I could do it in a jiffy, just press button and erase everything. I would prefer to pretend that the last 2.5 years didn’t happen. I have a few ex-colleagues who still get indigestion upon the mention of this place.

Anyway, that little incidence left a final sting of bitterness on my tongue, on top of the 2.5 years of nauseating pungent taste.