Melt-No-More
April 17, 2008 by haziamyperspective
One day in your life
Youll remember a place
Someone touching your face
Youll come back and youll look around, youll . . .
One day in your life
Youll remember the love you found here
Youll remember me somehow
Though you dont need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
Youll remember one day . . .
One day in your life
When you find that youre always waiting
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and Ill be there
Song: One Day in Your Life
Singer: Michael Jackson
The above song kept on playing in my head ever since yesterday. I first heard it in school, it was sung at a concert by a senior whom I secretly admired. He only sang English songs, that was unusual for our ‘kampung’ school. My outspoken friend said that maybe in his heart, I was as tiny as a germ. My answer was… well, at least, I was still in his heart, LOL! Man, how long ago…
Someone found his IC photo which fell off from his pink card (pass to go out to town). She gave it to me. Another friend send my regards to him. She didn’t have the heart to convey his reply but I overheard her telling the others. "If it’s a form 3 girl, she can go to hell…" well, he said something like that, in Malay of course. I was devastated. LOL!
My mood nowadays… I kept feeling like I’ve missed something, as if life has passed me by, moved on while I had my head turned somewhere for a short while.
Things have changed a lot. I think I’ve finally discharged the remains of the lowest period of my life a year or two ago. I’m hardly online these days but sometimes when I do log on to msn/YM, several guys would quickly buzzed me. To think that only months ago, they seemed jittery, running away, disappearing…
More updates… Perhaps this one deserves an entry on its own, only if we ever meet again though. 2 years ago, I coordinated media interviews for someone’s honorable project, Road to Mecca. It featured his overland journey to Mecca, a journey that did not reach the intended destination, but enriching nonetheless. I didn’t get to see him on the holy land while performing Haj, his Visa wasn’t approved. The short film made it to Singapore International Film Festival 2007. It was aired early this month, I couldn’t make it. He said he’d try to arrange a few screenings in KL.
2 strangers whom I met at work today commented about the timeliness of my appointment. At least, I can make the much-needed change, especially with me being from the private sector, mostly with American companies too. Yeah, once I have my whole brand new team onboard. After 3 full days of interviews, I finally shortlisted 4 candidates for my department. Each with different strengths, skills and experience, the combination would create the ideal team. I have to admit that being interviewed back by the candidate I shortlisted to be my deputy boost my motivational level. For the first time, I really believe that this job will turn out to be another one of my success stories.
A colleague whom I first deemed as arrogant, Mr Defensive, is slowly becoming a close friend. We talked a lot, mostly about frustrations at work… sometimes until late in the evening, over the phone mostly, even when we were both in the office. He is even more street smart & gutsy than I am, it is fun listening to his rebellious tactics and thinking. We just want to shake things up in the dull & ‘gomen’ world. Of course, this guy is brilliant and good looking. The old me would have melted, but like I said, I’m a changed person.
Also, just now, on my school alumnus mailing list, my friend said that 3 of her ex-colleagues are now my colleagues. Seemed like another century when I crashed in with her and 2 more girls during my first job while doing audit field work. That part of my life did inspire my sci-fi romance short story, Rose Buds.
Yes, without me realising, the waves of change are hitting my life. Big ones too…
